An Idle Mind

An idle mind. Different from a meditating mind. Far from a calm mind.

Searching for an identity. Rummaging through old collections of photos, letters and clothes. Desperate for some belonging. Yearning for some thought, some excitement, an opportunity.

Blank.

Open to suggestion….?

Doubtful of an offer. Vulnerable.

Void of the joy in the simple experience of a quiet moment, some private space. Constantly having only to devise ways to avoid a situation that would provoke a mad streak of energy.

Forget.

Bring the battle of what was and what is, to a halt.

Accept the present. Resistance.

Finding a point from which square one can form a new beginning and meaning to my self, my mind. Threading hope, dreams and reality to each other and adorn them all and make up my mind.